Ranting and Raving
The minute I posted that last post I realized how much I'm starting to loathe my days, so, while I am not near as productive as I'd like to be, I've reclaimed "me" time.
And it rules.
In your face, responsibilities!
For the Record
- If one more person asks me if I've found a job yet, I will punch them in the throat. Finding a job takes time, people. I don't have time for anything anymore. I'm pretty much busy from about 8 am until I get home about midnight every day, and I'm still not getting it all done.
- Apparantly you can not only seriously overbook yourself, but you can completely forget what it feels like to be normal. Also - free time? What's that? I have never had this little control over my life before EVER. And, still very very broke. How the HELL does that happen?
- For those of you I'm doing projects for, you will hear from me - my computer decided it would no longer accept internet connections, so I've dragged it over to moms and am working side-by-side with hers. Everything is being done "the long way" now so I am totally loving you for your patience.
So yeah, no life, no time, no money, no internet, I see my apartment for about an hour every day...
Ahhh life. Fuck you.
Put it away
I hid that last post. I guess I just hate feeling weak and small (especially in front of others), and when I am having a hard time sometimes I let things build up too long. Breaking point reached, officially.
I'll be fine, I always am. I'm just nearing the "nowhere else to go but up" point a lot faster than I thought. In fact, I can almost reach out and touch it.
No worries - I'm a tough chick - I'll figure it out.
So, I had a rockin' interview last week. I kicked ass, she mentioned her target salary (quite low for what I wanted - didn't mention that part though) but said she'd call once she spoke with the Art Director.
No call. I didn't call her back (I know! Faux pas!) because honestly I dont think there was any wiggle room in the salary range she offered.
This morning - phone conference with a potential client after I spoke for about a half hour w/ another member of the same company, who not only seemed to really like me, but made it sound like a done deal. Today, the woman seemed completely disinterested and said "Thank you for your time. I'll be in touch."
Money says I don't hear another peep.
That makes about 4-5 good interviews that slipped through my fingers. I mean, I know I'm not the perfect interviewee, but I know my stuff and a few have been quite excited to meet me.
Seriously why do potential clients/employers not want to commit? I mean, really. I may not have the fattest portfolio, but I know what I'm doing and those I've done work for are quite pleased. I have references and I'm willing to do a mock-up etc if they want to see something. Not that big of a deal.
God -job hunting is like dating all over again.